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diff --git a/served/words/weeknotes/2025/1.html b/served/words/weeknotes/2025/1.html new file mode 100644 index 0000000..646e576 --- /dev/null +++ b/served/words/weeknotes/2025/1.html @@ -0,0 +1,80 @@ +--- +template=post +title=Weeknotes 1 +style=/styles/post.css +style=../../writing.css +path-offset=2 + +weeknote=1 +published=2025-01-10 16:30 + +description=one dot hach tee em ell +--- + +Hey, wow, it's 2025! + +I am going into this year with a lack of credit card debt (my car did a no-power-steering) +and a deep tired +in my bones. I've worked every day since December 11th. Well. Every night, +since I'm still on night shift. I quite literally asked for it so I cannot seek +sorrow! And yet. The overtime is nice, however. + +The year and a new project of mine started together. I know I know, who needs +more of those. But it's fun! I think so, at least. + +I call it <a href="/the-continuum/">The Continuum</a>! Every day I post a +banner to my homepage and update +a continually-taller image with a 256x1 strip of pixels where it's height has +been collapsed, averaging the colours. + +Here's to hope I make it for at least a few months without missing a day. I think +I can make it all year! But we'll see how <i>that</i> goes now won't we. + +Anyway, the archives are cool. You should go look at them ;3 +<a href="/the-continuum/banners/">banners/</a> + +My favourite from the week <i>(in full glory)</i>: +<img src="/the-continuum/banners/2025-01-03/banner.gif" + alt="genny's and a large dog's eyes are inline with one another. their heads face roughly the same direction, but genny looks at the camera and moose, the dog, off to the right" /> + +That's me and a coworker's dog named Moose. I love Moose. He is the biggest +goddamn dog I've ever seen! Oh, I cannot get over how goddamn big that +goddamn dog is. He's so large! He's like a small bear!! + +And that's kind of all I did! Not a lot. + +Well, I started to play a Minecraft modpack called <i>Enigmatica 2: Expert</i>. +I've never played a modpack before, really, so I did some looking around and +this one seems to be well regarded! It is challenging and fun! + +<i style="color: var(--text-dim)">(in which she writes a lot about e2:e because it has + consumed so, so much of her time)</i> + +It seems that the Modpacks of yore were a lot of "here are some mods that work +well together", but now they are "here are a lot of mods that work well together, +a little because we made them work well together, and also we have like 600 quests +to help guide you through them!" + +Which is to say: There is a lot of questing? Which was surprising? Often a quest +reward will be a "Loot Box" which is a slot machine that doesn't require payment. +You get, as far as I can tell, a random item from the game. One of my very early +rolls was an "Ultimate Furnace". It is a very powerful endgame utility-thing. + +The Ultimate Furnace smelts an item in 2 ticks. Two <i>goddamn</i> ticks! +What is 2 ticks,,, 100 milliseconds? +That's cool enough. I would understand if it also consumed fuel at a rate +proportional to the smelting increase. Like an item smelts in two ticks but +coal only lasts like, 20 ticks. That would make sense to me! But no! The fuel +burns at the same rate it does in a normal furnace! So you <i>know</i> I filled +that thing with sticks. It's so, so nice. + +I made an Industrial Craft 2 Electric Furnace <i>(a quest asked me to)</i> and +didn't use it at all because I had this could-kill-god furnace sitting here +that didn't consume all my EU power and smelted <i>so</i> fast. + +<hr /> + +okay, that's enough. this was late by three days. i did not bleed the new week +into it even though i very much desired so! + +goodbye. see you next week! \ No newline at end of file diff --git a/served/words/weeknotes/2025/2.html b/served/words/weeknotes/2025/2.html new file mode 100644 index 0000000..ff46e08 --- /dev/null +++ b/served/words/weeknotes/2025/2.html @@ -0,0 +1,56 @@ +--- +template=post +title=Weeknotes 2 +style=/styles/post.css +style=../writing.css +path-offset=2 + +weeknote=2 +published=2025-01-10 16:30 + +description=poorly isolated 2nd week &blues +--- + +happy 2nd week 2025. + +we're feeling low, so it's lowercase again. this is poorly-isolated, some of the +third week has come into this one, but that's okay. i am tired and trying to +figure out when things happens, with poor record keeping, is a lot of work. + +nothing much happened! i bought, and later received, a sony a7s ii as well as +two lens for it. a 28-70mm and a 50mm which has become, or will be if usps ever +delivers it, the fastest/brightest/widest lens i own. this cost a majority of +the overtime money i accumulated through most of december. i've been having fun +with it! and i will share photos later, and hopefully video! eagerly. + +i am trying to try more. what i mean is, i am very tired and i want so hard to +do things. i wrote to my sister—who receives a lot of my brain-thoughts (for +very-much worse, i'm sure)—the following: + +<blockquote> + 2025 will be my year. I will drag it, and it me, kicking and screaming. I will + be tired and uncomfortable and frustrated, sometimes I'm sure, but I will <b>try</b>. +</blockquote> + +This is something I have tried to embody many times! Over the last months especially. +Change does not need to happen at some milestone: The start of a new year, a birthday, +an almost-died. I'm not sure it can, really, given the slowness of it all. + +Hey, when did I start capitalizing? Weird. + +I will try to fight the fatigue and the unfocus and the something-lacking rarely-motivation, +yes especially that one, and I will try to slowly become more real. + +And I will embrace the weird and the messy and the whatever-the-fuck-publishing-this is. +<i>(publishing, of course, carrying the meaning of only "to my website, sort-of tucked away". + which still counts, but seems gently insignificant)</i> + +<hr /> + +There is not much <i>Enigmatica 2: Expert</i> progress. I keep falling asleep +before I start playing it. It does not help, also, that my desk has become unusable +due to the half-rearranged nature of my living quarters. + +Last time, however, I was writing with care for the separation of weeks! So I +did not include that I'd achieved having built an IC2 nuclear reactor, which +very much solved the "my macerator keeps eating all my power" problem. \ No newline at end of file diff --git a/served/words/weeknotes/2025/trip-to-a-coffee-shop.html b/served/words/weeknotes/2025/trip-to-a-coffee-shop.html new file mode 100644 index 0000000..d8a98c4 --- /dev/null +++ b/served/words/weeknotes/2025/trip-to-a-coffee-shop.html @@ -0,0 +1,102 @@ +--- +template=post +title=Weeknotes: Trip to A Coffee Shop +style=/styles/post.css +style=../../writing.css +path-offset=2 + +weeknote=6 +published=2025-02-11 20:35 + +description=where i become a little more real. and drink some coffee. +--- +<style> + .wkn { + color: var(--text-dim); + } +</style> + +"i forgot my earbuds at home and i think i'm going to die. i pulled around the +starbucks and nobody was inside except two people working. i can't go in now!</i> + +"i would leave, maybe go through the driveup, because there are not enough people +inside and that's too much pressure to exist in, being one of only three people +in a place and i don't know the other people. i can't Blend In.</i> + +"but some better version of myself, the Me that i want to be, would go in anyway +and sit and be on her laptop. and i am trying to be that version of me, so i +guess i have to go in." + +<hr class="asterism" /> + +<p class="wkn">Hello again. It's been a bit.</p> + +<p class="wkn">Since I last wrote to you I've done not-much. I wrote an lzw decompressor for + my gif crate. It's 2,000x slower than the weezl crate which is what I was using before and + am still using. + +<p class="wkn">I didn't really think I'd get great performance, but I just wanted to be able + to say I did it. It's also a bit broken, but that's okay. I can fix it later :)</p> + +<hr class="asterism" /> + +She stops the engine of her still-running car and flings the keys at her body in +a "that's it, the engine is off" sort of movement. The door flings open. Her +phone makes it into her pocket, just barely, and her body is flung from the vehicle +without time for her to think about it. + +"I guess we're standing now", she exclaims entirely inward. The drivers door +stays open as she retrieves her bag from the rear seats. Finally, as if sealing +the doing-things deal, she uses the inside button to lock things and closes both doors. + +It's cold! You can tell because she's wrapped the cardigan further around +herself. + +<hr class="asterism" /> + +<p class="wkn">I always intend to write here. It's something I want to do and a thing I think is + good for my mental health and a habit I want to keep (rather, develop?).</p> + +<p class="wkn">It's hard! It's not supposed to be easy, perhaps. My thing-doing cycle is, + out of sync with the weeks. It feels like every two to three weeks I get a few days + where I can work on anything. Otherwise I am fairly nothing-doing. What I do on most + days I could not tell you. I'm working on fixing this, I think; I'm trying to claw + days back that would otherwise be lost to whatever it is that is taking them.</p> + +<hr class="asterism" /> + +They asked her if she wanted a "for here mug" and it was gently confusing. That is +not something she knew was real and actual. Paying, she sat down and opened a little +notebook. It has writing taped to the cover with things like: "slowly! go slowly", +"do a thing today!", "don't get paralyzed", "try!", etc. + +"Agenda", she writes on a page with a ripped-out corner. It should say "Dreams I Have +For Today" or even "Aspirations of Doing", but the ripped-corner makes the available +room rather minimal. + +<hr class="asterism" /> + +<p class="wkn">I am writing to you from a coffee shop in Octavia, Wisconsin. That is not a real + place, but I will use it as a thin facade over the place I actually live. Plus + "Octavia" is really quite pretty.</p> + +<p class="wkn">I came here with dreams of doing; with an agenda to get some things done. To start + the next era of my life where I try really, very hard to get more done and love + myself more. I am sure, certain in fact—which is a synonym of sure but we're moving + past that—that this feeling of confidence that I can Exist will fade off and die, + but I will fight to keep it alive.</p> + +<hr class="asterism" /> + +She sits at the table in the corner. The heat has just kicked on and it's giving pleasant, +gentle warmth that is very much appreciated. She seems comfortable. It looks like she's +making promises with herself, with some future and past versions thereof, and trying to +keep her eyes dry. And smiling. + +In her notebook with phrases written on the cover such as <i>embrace the weird</i>, she writes:<br /> +"Note to selves: Forget your earbuds more often". + +<section id="signoff"> + <pre>till next time, +Mercy of Inann &<br/>Genevieve Raine</pre> +</section> \ No newline at end of file |