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diff --git a/served/bits/__.html b/served/bits/__.html new file mode 100755 index 0000000..e7aff8a --- /dev/null +++ b/served/bits/__.html @@ -0,0 +1,128 @@ +--- +template=post +title=🌦️ +category=writing +#Publish 2023-08-05 02:57 -0500 +style=/styles/post.css +style=🌦.css + +description=briefly, on names. maybe. +--- + +<!-- https://www.scottohara.me/blog/2022/09/12/details-summary.html --> + +<h1 style="padding-left: 3rem; font-style: italic">on names, maybe</h1> + +<p> + i really like names. the things people call themselves. these-these wonderous + groups of syllables traded; swapped; created out of thin air, some thoughts, and a whole lot of self. +</p> +<p> + shorten them, lengthen them, throw the whole collection of letters away and start anew. + co-opt a word! move through and around and relax within. change them if you please! + regularly if you like. maybe even swap back, forth, and back again. +</p> + +<p> + here's a thing. posted originally + <a href="https://amble.quest/notice/ATaqGUcyaI6KOZjUJc" style="text-decoration: line-through;">here</a> + (dead link), but in a different form. i was playing a game once and saw them. we talked about their name, briefly, + for the five or so minutes we had. +</p> + +<p style="text-align: center"> + <i>click the coloured bits<br>to reveal more text</i> +</p> + +<details class="root arrow" style="min-height: 10rem"> + <summary>e.</summary> + <p style="display: block">i know i'm very strange; i get excited when people are nice and neat and cool and talk to + me when i play games such as these. your name is just very nice.</p> + <details class="more"> + <summary></summary> + <p>we all know i have a softspot for short-and-abstract and english-word names. yours happens to tickle me.</p> + <details class="more"> + <summary></summary> + <p>How short can a poem be? A sentence, a word, perhaps a letter? maybe it can be a carefully placed space, + floating there, meaning. we now know, though, that there's a two letter contender. it's <i>e.</i>, see. + </p> + <details class="more"> + <summary></summary> + <p>could it be euler's number? possibly! estrogen? could be! maybe even nothing. a letter most common. + everything. “anything”, you said, “eye of the beholder”.</p> + <details class="more"> + <summary></summary> + <p>i'm a lot, don't worry, i know. but your name, those two letters. they've taken me. <i>e.</i> you + asked me! “what does it mean to you”. well, for the time being, and likely a little more—until + this memory slips by lost to the hazy abyss of those forgotten—it means you.</p> + </details> + </details> + </details> + </details> +</details> + +<p style="font-style: italic;">(and something more personal in the same presentation style)</p> + +<details class="arrow" id="names-i-like" style="margin-top: 32px; margin-bottom: 32px"> + <summary>most people know me by a name that the government does not. not the one that was given to me. </summary> + <p>they call me genny, short for Genevieve.</p> + <details class="more"> + <summary></summary> + <p> + it was given to me, accidentally, by a now-good friend. genny first, + and then Genevieve. But it's not a given name. More offered and accepted. + I like it—that's why I use it!—but it's not perfect I don't + think. Not perfectly me I mean. + </p> + <details class="more"> + <summary></summary> + <p> + I have a brain-disconnect. Between my body and my mind. + And I like a lot of names, some maybe even more than genny, but I don't think I can wear + them. Not openly and feel good about it. Names like + </p> + <details class="arrow"> + <summary>Amelia</summary> + <details class="arrow"> + <summary style="padding-left: 12.5%">Medley</summary> + <details class="arrow" style="padding-left: 12.5%"> + <summary style="padding-left: 12.5%">Inann</summary> + <p> + Which sounds <i>beautiful</i> but I would be terrified to wear. What if someone saw me + wearing it? They'd say it's not mine. They'd know it's stolen. It can't possibly be mine. + How can a name such as that belong to someone that looks so + </p> + <details class="arrow"> + <summary style="padding-left: 12.5%; font-style: italic;">unfitting</summary> + <details class="arrow"> + <summary style="font-style: italic;">undeserving</summary> + <p style="display: block; margin-left: -13%; margin-top: 8px"> + someone so <i>me</i>. + </p> + </details> + </details> + </details> + </details> + </details> + </details> + </details> +</details> + +<h2>notes</h2> +<p id="notes" class="notes"> + this page was originally 🌦.html, but the links were showing up url encoded in discord + and elsewhere and, for some reason, firefox mobile was just <i>not rendering</i> + the sun-storm rain cloud. +</p> +<p class="notes"> + so now it's the double-underscore. which i think, "yeah, that might be better". if i go and + overanalyze it- <i>(well don't do do that)</i>. why not? anyway, if we analyze it maybe too + much we can say it's a metaphor for my lack of solid identity and desire to flip-flop + between names a lot. "fill in name here". <i>(that's dumb)</i>. hey, leave me alone, me. let + me have fun. +</p> +<p class="notes"> + i never do explain the emoji do i? i just like it. i use it in name fields a lot. the current + canon is that rain is my middle name. it's so unassuming, the sun-rain. there are no expectations. + just, maybe, that they're a little weird. or something. +</p> \ No newline at end of file |