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published=2025-01-10 16:30

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happy 2nd week 2025.

we're feeling low, so it's lowercase again. this is poorly-isolated, some of the
third week has come into this one, but that's okay. i am tired and trying to
figure out when things happens, with poor record keeping, is a lot of work.

nothing much happened! i bought, and later received, a sony a7s ii as well as
two lens for it. a 28-70mm and a 50mm which has become, or will be if usps ever
delivers it, the fastest/brightest/widest lens i own. this cost a majority of
the overtime money i accumulated through most of december. i've been having fun
with it! and i will share photos later, and hopefully video! eagerly.

i am trying to try more. what i mean is, i am very tired and i want so hard to
do things. i wrote to my sister—who receives a lot of my brain-thoughts (for
very-much worse, i'm sure)—the following:

<blockquote>
	2025 will be my year. I will drag it, and it me, kicking and screaming. I will
	be tired and uncomfortable and frustrated, sometimes I'm sure, but I will <b>try</b>.
</blockquote>

This is something I have tried to embody many times! Over the last months especially.
Change does not need to happen at some milestone: The start of a new year, a birthday,
an almost-died. I'm not sure it can, really, given the slowness of it all.

Hey, when did I start capitalizing? Weird.

I will try to fight the fatigue and the unfocus and the something-lacking rarely-motivation,
yes especially that one, and I will try to slowly become more real.

And I will embrace the weird and the messy and the whatever-the-fuck-publishing-this is.
<i>(publishing, of course, carrying the meaning of only "to my website, sort-of tucked away".
	which still counts, but seems gently insignificant)</i>

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There is not much <i>Enigmatica 2: Expert</i> progress. I keep falling asleep
before I start playing it. It does not help, also, that my desk has become unusable
due to the half-rearranged nature of my living quarters.

Last time, however, I was writing with care for the separation of weeks! So I
did not include that I'd achieved having built an IC2 nuclear reactor, which
very much solved the "my macerator keeps eating all my power" problem.